anyone feel like they’re too rational to have an ed sometimes? like i know to eat if i’m about to faint, i can act normal when eating out with other people. i can’t decide if i’m deceiving myself or my ed and since when did i become two different people and i hate it.
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You know you’re anorexic when…
(The ones in bold text are related to me on a high level)🦋✨🕊🦋✨🕊🦋✨🕊
- You stop having your period altogether
- You spend more time planning out your eating pattern than you do on your term paper
- You don’t own a single food item that does not come in a fat-free, reduced cal butter
- Caffeine… Need I say more?
- You have to schedule times with different friends so your excuse of “I already ate” will fly
- Coca zero is your BeStFriEnD
- Going to a doctor means drinking a gallon of water and stashing all your change in your pockets and socks, just in case he/she wants to weigh you.
- You fill a carriage of food at the grocery store and put it all back, leaving wtih nothing.
- You spend 20 bucks on a meal and don’t put any of it in your mouth.
- You know the calorie content of almost ANYTHING
- You pass trough space and dimensions as soon as you stand up
- You automatically count calories as soon as you take a bite of something. (One cracker is 12 calories, and this bite was about half)
- Everyone in the room is sweating in a tank top, and your freezing in a sweater
- You cannot drink a soda that’s not diet under any circumstances
- You’re suspicious of the amount of calories the package says (120 that can’t be right, better add 40 more)
- You can remember the amount of calories you ate 5 days ago, but you can’t remember where you put your earphones.
- You know the calorie content of more foods than a nutritionist
- When you wake up in the middle of the night (or a few times) and have to measure yourself several times to make sure you haven’t gained anything before you can go back to sleep.
- You think 30 calories is alot for a drink
- When you think who needs friends with all these voices in your head
- When you wake up in a cold sweat because you dreamt that you ate something horrific and can’t rest until you weigh yourself
- When you think that 100 calories for one meal is to much
- When you walk a mile each way too and from school, then go for a run, then bike another 3 miles, in the middle of december in the upper midwest.
- You drink enough water to flood a small country when you wake up scared as hell because you just had a very realistic dream about eating.
- You convince everyone around you that you’re either vegan, vegetarian, lactose or gluten intolerant, or diabetic, bonus point if you convince them you are all of the above.
- You intentionally buy clothes that are a size smaller than what you currently are.
- When you put your dumbbells/extra books in your ruksack so its heavier because you figure the more cals burned the better.
- When you have to talk to yourself to find out if you can eat, only to end up with an upgrade to only having a glass of water.
- You relish the feeling of hunger because you know that you are doing something right.
- Your diet pills are your daily supply of vitamins.
- When you weigh yourself whenever you can hoping to see even a quarter of a pound dropped.
- You have more cookbooks than your local bookstore.
- You get depressed if you can’t go to your online ED-forums.
- You tell yourself that those “hunger pangs” are just a stomach ache from eating too much.
- When you’ve noticed that you’ve gained a pound and start exercising mad-style as soon as you get off the scale.
- When you’re wearing thermal underwear in the summer.
- When you check vitamin bottles for calories.
- When your thighs don’t touch together when you’re walking.
- When you see pictures of starving people and become jealous.
- When you find out toothpaste has 15 calories in it and dont brush your teeth for 4 days straight than remember you dont actually swallow the toothpaste.
- When you worry if your laxatives have calories.
- When you over lap your fingers around your wrist numerous times a day.
- Smoke more because it burns calories.
- Uncontrollable shaking from not eating is a good sign that you’ve been « good ».
- If your butt hurts from sitting on the floor and your bones sticking out, you think it’s because all your FAT has put to much weight on it.
- You worry about putting on flavored lip gloss because nothing that good and with flavor can have 0 calories.
- Your mood depends on if you’ve eaten that day or not.
